Have You Ever Contemplated Suicide?
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I have friends who’ve tried suicide many times and haven’t succeeded. I attempted, so I had a connection with that sort of group of people who have tried suicide at one time in their lives. Judy Collins
John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life and have it to the full.
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Suicide is a serious thing. And if you know anyone who is suicidal, you need to get them help. No one should be in pain. Everyone should love themselves. ~ Gerard Way
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.
My Story Concerning Suicidal Thoughts That Plagued Me
When I was a junior in high school, I had thoughts of suicide. It was a tough time in my life. I did not want to die, but I lost the desire to keep on living and was struggling with school pressures and the death of a very close friend, not to mention that I was using marijuana and alcohol, and other drugs more and more to escape reality.
I was what you would call superficially involved with a church at St. Gregory’s the Great when I was in grade school, but even so, I knew that God was there for me. Though life was complicated and confusing, it was also scary and drained me emotionally and physically. I just kept praying this bad dream would be over, and thank God He answered my prayer!
I did not wish to be dead necessarily, but I could not deal with life and all the pain the way it was.
All the pain I was experiencing. I did not know how to cope with my feelings. These feelings first started coming to a head when my best friend Steve Mader died at age 17 when I was 16 years old. Contacting someone from suicide prevention would have been a wise thing to do. Still, I was unaware of it, so instead, I had to deal with my thoughts and feelings independently. I self-medicated myself with marijuana, alcohol, and other harmful substances. Narcotics Anonymous and Alcoholics Anonymous were somewhat helpful, but without God, my life kept bottoming out.
I remember not wanting to go shopping for clothes in high school because I did not want to waste my parents’ money since I was emotionally ready to check out for good by taking my life. It was mentally very tough to live when I kept on fanaticizing about being dead. It was very fortunate that I got medical help in a hospital and support from my family – mostly my mom – who did everything she could do to help me and make things the best she could for me.
The psych hospital did help a little.
It bought me time to get a handle on things. I know people were praying for me, and I just kept trying to cooperate. It was not until about ten years later that I got the right drug and alcohol treatment that I needed in long-term treatment, but I kept treading water, sort to speak up until then. Things kept the same with my using drugs and alcohol until I got into trouble with the law. I have been clean and sober since June 25, 1986. Praise God!
Thankfully I have been able to help my mom by repaying her by taking care of her for the last eight years of her life. It was interesting how she helped me, and then I helped her. I am so thankful to God that He took away those thoughts and gave me a new start. The big thing for me was to stay alcohol and drug-free. With that under my belt, I had a fighting chance. My prayer is that the same thing happens to you and your situation. Life is worth living once we find our purpose!
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Life can be extremely painful. I know for a fact. When you are down and hurting, it is sometimes hard to think clearly or rationally.
You are not alone (chat now). Most people would have to admit that they have at least once thought about the idea of suicide. Suicide prevention saves lives!
Call this number right now 1-800-273-TALK (8255) if you have had any recent thoughts of suicide. There is help available now, and please do not delay!
Even thoughts of living life can make living life such a painful burden. I know that feeling, and that is why you need God’s help and help from others who care, so once again, please call 1-800-273-TALK (8255).~ Bill Greguska