Bill’s Book Chapter 12 – Recovery From Addiction

Addiction is a monster, but it can be conquered!

Addiction is a monster, but it can be conquered, and recovery from addiction is common if and when, you do not give up on yourself!

I wrote this book below to have it published but decided to put it on my website instead to share it with anyone interested. May it be a blessing to you as you read it. ~ Bill Greguska


Chapter 1 – My Letter To The Lord

Chapter 2 – It Starts With Me

Chapter 3 – God’s Plan

Chapter 4 – God’s Way

Chapter 5 – God Answers Prayers

Chapter 6 – Faith During Hard Times

Chapter 7 – Relationship With Others

Chapter 8 – Love Is The Answer

Chapter 9 – Victory Over Evil

Chapter 10 – Heaven Is Our Home

Chapter 11 – Emotions Are Interesting

Chapter 12 – Recovery










  1. God Does Not Make Junk
  2. Stay on Track
  3. Are We There Yet?
  4. Hard Times Are Never Wasted
  5. Free Will to Choose
  6. Filled with the Holy Spirit
  7. Hard Times
  8. Regular Exercise
  9. Breaking the Chains
  10. Biggest Disappointments


1. God Does Not Make Junk

Lord, I need to take a step back and look at my good qualities and focus on them. I need to use them in a way to love others more, I can remember before I had problems with drugs and alcohol, my self-esteem, and my relationship with you, Lord, was lacking.  Somehow thought that using drugs and alcohol would enhance my personality and other qualities, but I was wrong. Having learned that each of us has some good qualities, I tried to make it a point to identify what mine are and use them for good in my life, and encourage others in their lives. Lord, I need to think of how I am using my good qualities that you have blessed me with to be a blessing to others. Recovery is closer than you may think.

Lord, all good things come from you, including the good qualities that you have blessed each one of us with.

Lord, please help erase the lies that Satan planted in our minds, and replace them with your Word Lord. Help us to be more thankful, yet also humbled to know that all good things come from you, including sobriety and being drug-free.

2 Peter 1:8 For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.

It’s far more impressive when others discover your good qualities without your help. ~ Judith Martin, is an American journalist, author, and etiquette authority.

2. Stay on Track

Lord, I need to understand that as people, we sometimes get off track, but that does not mean we can not get back on track. There was a nun teacher back in grade school named Sister Patrica Francis who use to tell me every so often, “Bill, you are on the right track, but sometimes the wrong train.” Drugs and alcohol definitely got me off track, but you, Lord, and the help of others got me back on track, and eventually, my recovery was successful. Although sometimes in our sin, we have no control of the consequences, although we can still be forgiven when we find ourselves off track.

Lord, in this world of temptation, greed, lust, sin, and addiction, it is sometimes hard to stay on track.

Lord, please give us the wisdom to know and follow Your will, so that we may please and honor You in all that we say and do. Even though it may be hard at times, with you, we know that all things are possible.

Isaiah 53:6: We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way, and the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all.

Even though you are on the right track – you will get run over if you just sit there. ~ Will Rogers, American stage and motion-picture actor, vaudeville performer.

3. Are We There Yet?

Lord, I was a prisoner to alcohol and drugs for ten years, which cause a lot of damage in my life, but thank you, Lord, that now I am free at last. I love to celebrate my recovery anniversary day each year, and it makes me realize how powerful prayer is and how great, powerful, and loving you are. It has been many years now that I have become free from drugs and alcohol, and the fight was so worth it. I thank everyone who played a part in my recovery. Praise God!

Lord, you have made us new creations, we thank you and give you praise for that, I sometimes marvel that you have given us both a new life here on earth, and also eternity in heaven.

We praise you for your goodness, grace, and love for us. I realize I am never free if sin has it’s holding on me. Also that you Lord paid a debt you didn’t owe because I owed a debt I couldn’t pay. I just cooperated, and the Lord was the one who gave me recovery.

2 Corinthians 5:17: Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

For the sake of peace and justice, let us move toward a world in which all people are at last free to determine their own destiny. ~ Ronald Reagan served as the 40th president of the United States.

4. Hard Times Are Never Wasted

Lord, when I have kept a level head, and keep following you, Lord, I have noticed that my hard times will not last that long. Lord, the hard times I had in my life were mostly caused by myself in some way or another. Getting addicted to alcohol, drugs, or knee jerk reactions that I have impulsively made. On the other hand, my recovery helped to make me who I am today, a grateful Christian man who loves the Lord. I need to learn what I can gain from through difficult times. Lord, for example, if I ever got injured, that injury is not a wasted event if I learn from it, and you don’t repeat the same mistake over again. I thank you, God, for my gift of recovery!

Lord, when we look back at the past hard times in our lives, we can notice how you were always right there with us orchestrated things.

Yes, sometimes things got pretty difficult, but you never left us or forsaken us. Our faith grows stronger, the more we see your work in our lives.

James 1:12: Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

The vibe in our locker room is really energetic and fun and personable, I think, from Day One, that gets you through a lot of tough times, where in hard times, it might be common nature for guys to do their own thing and split up and become silent. ~ Stephen Curry is a Christian and a six-time NBA All-Star, who won three NBA championships with the Golden State Warriors.

5. Free Will to Choose

Lord, I learned when I was back in school, that the best way to pass a test is to know what is on it. So it is best to become aware of the things that test your resilience before they happen, rather than when it happens. I am not sinless, but since I accepted you in my life Lord in my life in 1986, I sin less. I am thankful that you are full of grace and mercy. Otherwise, we all would be in big trouble, and since what I went through, I encourage others to decide to live their life for you too, Lord.

Lord, we thank You for giving us a free will to choose from good from evil, help us Lord with this freedom so that we do not abuse it in any way which would dishonor You.

Lord, give us all wisdom to make wise choices with the freedom you give us. Make sure that with your free will, that we are not so open-minded that our brains stop operating. When I am thinking clearly, I can make good and godly choices. Recovery was one of the wisest things I choose for myself besides following you, Lord.

James 1:3: because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.

A demon, in a way, is a test of your faith. Because if you’re doing God’s work, there’s no reason for any demon to do anything to you. ~ Troy Polamalu is a former Pittsburgh Steeler from the National Football League.

7. Filled With The Holy Spirit?

Lord, since I was filled with the Holy Spirit, it has given me a new outlook on life, yes, I still sin, but when I do sin, it bothers me enough to confess and repent and make things right with others and you Lord, as soon as possible. I pray for those who are not yet filled with your Holy Spirit. Excepting you, Lord Jesus, as my Lord and Savior is how I could become filled with your Holy Spirit. I would call it being dead to my old self and made new in your Holy Spirit Lord. I like the way you put thoughts in my mind, such as Input God = Output Good / Input Devil = Output Evil. This goes hand in hand often when we turn the TV on, and the natural result will be that we turn off what the Holy Spirit needs to show and tell us.

Lord, I know that without you, I am not in good company in this sinful world.

Help all of us always to remember that we need is you and your loving direction for our lives to have a purpose and meaning. In our own merits, we are all lost souls, but with you, anyone can have salvation, and recovery, and be filled with your Holy Spirit.

Ephesians 5:18 Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit.

Earthly wisdom is doing what comes naturally. Godly wisdom is doing what the Holy Spirit compels us to do. ~ Charles Stanley founded In Touch Ministries with the mission to lead people worldwide into a growing relationship with Jesus Christ.

8. Hard Times

Lord, I know that it is okay to rest if I must, but I ought not to quit when life gets ugly. When I was in high school and got in trouble with my addictions and with the law, messed up on alcohol and drugs, I had thoughts of taking my own life. My mom helped me get my feet back on the ground until I could finally stop drinking and using drugs on June 25, 1986.

Lord, I am so glad the one road ended, and I took the road to recovery ever since then. It was a long, steep road, but I thank you, Lord, for watching over my life when it was spinning totally out of control. The good thing about difficult times is that they do not last forever. Lord, you are faithful and will guide us when we call out to you for help. Hard times are guaranteed to happen to all of us at some point in life, yet Lord, you will not allow us more than we can handle without a way out from under it, which you have proved to me time after time.

Lord, it is in hard times that we need to deal with those things that can become very discouraging.

Lord, you tell us that you are with us and will never forsake us, we hold that promise close to our hearts. Please give us the strength and confidence we need to make it from day to day, and also when the floodwater rises up to our neck.

Joshua 1:9Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord, your God will be with you wherever you go.”

A lot of country music is sad. I think most art comes out of poverty and hard times. It applies to music. Three chords and the truth – that’s what a country song is. There is a lot of heartache in the world. ~ Willie Nelson, singer, songwriter, musician, actor, and one of the most recognized artists in country music.

9. Regular Exercise

Lord, I believe that many people get too busy or are not motivated to get the proper exercise they need to take care of their bodies. Discipline through training has been important to me since my basketball playing days back to 4th grade, which is over 50 years now. I like to be healthy and to feel good. Yet, like anyone of us, we can get too busy or lazy to take care of our bodies. Lord, when I exercise, it burns off more than calories, it burns off stress and makes my body healthy. Exercise can be very beneficial for physical, mental, emotional, and even spiritual health.

Lord, You have given us life as a gift, help us to show our gratitude by taking care of what You have given to us. Help us to be motivated to exercise and live life in the healthiest way we can as our way of showing our thanks to you. Help us take care of our temple you have given us.

I firmly believe that if I do not take care of my body, my body will not take care of me.

I try not to put off exercise because it is easy to do just that. But instead make exercise a part of your daily and weekly routine.

Hebrews 12:11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.

It doesn’t matter whether you are pursuing success in business, sports, the arts, or life in general: The bridge between wishing and accomplishing is discipline. ~ Harvey Mackay gives career and inspirational advice.

10. Breaking The Chains

Lord, there are chains in each of our lives from time to time, and sometimes the chains seem so strong that I feel as though I would never be able to break them. The answer is to seek your help and pray for any bad habits or addictions that need to be broken. (anything that interferes with my relationship with you Lord). Thank you, for I am grateful to be able to say that with you Lord, I broke my addiction to alcohol, drugs, and cigarettes. Sometimes we may “feel” we can not break our chains, but that is only the devil talking to us. My recovery was an answered pray from me and many others who loved me. I keep trusting in you Lord, for you are trustworthy and faithful.

Lord, we pray that we or anyone we know who is battle with addiction and recovery. 

It is a blessing to be able to take the stronghold in life that have us, and that we can come to you with anticipation that you have the power to break any and all chains. Lord, if I do not hate sin, there is little hope that I will keep it out of my life. Lord, please answer our prayers, break the chains that bind us, and make us ineffective.

Psalms 2:3 Let us break their chains and throw off their shackles.”

Happy is the man who has broken the chains which hurt the mind and has given up worrying once and for all. ~ Publius Ovidius Naso, known as Ovid in the English-speaking world, was a Roman poet.

11. Biggest Disappointments

Lord, I know that life is full of disappointment as well as celebrations. Looking back on my life, one of the biggest disappointments in my life was getting involved with drugs and alcohol derailed my life and dreams I had, not to mention my potential in basketball. Getting divorced was another extremely big disappointment. Life is full of disappointments, but it is how we deal with them that matters. The question is, do we cry out to the Lord, or give up. Sometimes, Lord, you give, and sometimes you take. My friend Sue Sauer told me that we need to have an open palm rather than a clenched fist holding on tightly to expectations of people and things.

Lord, each new day brings it’s own problems and disappointments, help us to take all our cares and, give them to you Lord, for we trust that you will guide us and give us the wisdom to deal with all things.

Guard your heart against evil and all the worst scenarios, but always have hope for the very best that God has planned for you. For every major disappointment in my life, I have witnessed that God has replaced it with an even better blessing. It took time to realize this, but when I realized it, it was made so clear to me.

2 Corinthians 4:8-9 We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

Our heavenly Father understands our disappointment, suffering, pain, fear, and doubt. He is always there to encourage our hearts and help us understand that He’s sufficient for all of our needs. When I accepted this as an absolute truth in my life, I found that my worrying stopped. ~ Charles Stanley is the founder of In Touch Ministries and a New York Times best-selling author.